Open AccessJourneying to visibility: An autoethnography of self‐harm scars in the therapy room
Author(s) -
Stirling Fiona J.
Publication year - 2020
Publication title -
psychotherapy and politics international
Language(s) - English
Resource type - Journals
SCImago Journal Rank - 0.124
H-Index - 6
eISSN - 1556-9195
pISSN - 1476-9263
DOI - 10.1002/ppi.1537
Subject(s) - autoethnography , shame , psychotherapist , psychology , harm , identity (music) , self , negotiation , scars , aesthetics , countertransference , psychoanalysis , social psychology , sociology , art , medicine , gender studies , social science , surgery
This autoethnography explores the experience of a therapist negotiating the visibility of their self‐harm scars in the therapy room. Its form takes the shape of the author's personal meaning‐making journey, beginning by exploring the construction of the therapist identity before going on to consider the wounded healer paradigm and the navigation of self‐disclosure. A thread throughout is finding ways to resist fear and shame as both a researcher and counsellor. The author concludes by recounting fragments of sessions from the first client she worked with while having her scars visible. While not every therapist will have self‐harm scars, all therapists have a body which plays “a significant part of his or her unique contribution to therapy” (Burka, 2013, p. 257). This paper is, therefore, potentially valuable to any therapist, at any stage of development, who seeks to reflect on the role of the body and use of the self.