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Struggling to be a person: Lived experience of avoidant personality disorder
Author(s) -
Sørensen Kristine D.,
Råbu Marit,
Wilberg Theresa,
Berthelsen Eivind
Publication year - 2019
Publication title -
journal of clinical psychology
Language(s) - English
Resource type - Journals
SCImago Journal Rank - 1.124
H-Index - 119
eISSN - 1097-4679
pISSN - 0021-9762
DOI - 10.1002/jclp.22740
Subject(s) - psychology , superordinate goals , interpretative phenomenological analysis , sense of agency , reflexivity , feeling , personality , theme (computing) , psychology of self , agency (philosophy) , social psychology , identity (music) , qualitative research , psychotherapist , developmental psychology , sociology , social science , physics , computer science , acoustics , operating system
Objective To better understand the subjective lived experience of persons diagnosed with avoidant personality disorder (AVPD). Methods Persons with an AVPD ( N = 15) were interviewed twice with semistructured qualitative interviews and analyzed through interpretative–phenomenological analysis. Persons with first‐hand experience of AVPD were included in the research process. Results The superordinate theme, “struggling to be a person,” encompassed two main themes. The first, “fear and longing,” incorporated the subthemes “longing for connection,” “dreading to get close” and “being alone, for better or for worse.” The second main theme, “a doubting self,” included the subthemes “feeling insecure” and “searching for a sense of self.” Conclusions The findings shed light on how the reflexive selves of people with AVPD might struggle with sense‐making, sense of agency, and identity. This study underscores how impaired tacit knowledge of social behavior can hamper the process of being a person in relation to others.