This Land is not My Land / My Hijab and I

This land is not my landI realized I was queer when I was in college in Jordan, despite its very conservative environment. I was always attracted to women, but my first experience was in college when I fell in love with a woman while dating a guy. My boyfriend at the time found out and it created tons of problems which escalated into police being involved. My Hijab and II have a problem. I’ve always worn the hijab in a funny way. I’ve been wearing it for over 10 years now. The other day, my mom said, “You’re never going to know how to wear the hijab properly!” I grew up in a Shiite Muslim community in the South. All the girls and women in my family and my community are veiled. We were taught that something was wrong with non-hijab girls – that something was missing in their lives. We couldn’t say they were slutty because they included our cousins.